I'm taking my oldest to college today. Since she was born, we've moved across the country three times, had parents and grandparents pass away, and had all other sorts of major life changes everyone goes through, but today far and away is the biggest jolt to me and our family since the day her sister was born.
Through all the other events, she was there and we were the same family unit and now it is a completely different structure. But unlike a birth, where you generally have months of anticipation and preparation and the mom's body is changing and there is needing and everyone's schedule is changing and it is simply a wild shock to the family structure and how everyone lives their lives, this was just a day on the calendar and tomorrow we kinda keep doing what we were doing before and it feels wrong. I feel like I need a ceremony or something so I can pric process this new void in our lives properly move on. I'm sure we'll all be fine and deal with it, but tomorrow that amazing person who has been a brilliant part of my life since she was born clearly will no longer be a child, and I won't be able to be there for her every day and she won't be able to be there for me. I'm excited for her, scared for her, proud of her, and sad. Even if there is a little excitement about the rest of us entering our next phase of life.
Anyway, it goes fast. Enjoy it!
