I never met F3, I always wondered who the other person in the Wabash video was. I always assumed it was _Fan and I have no idea why. Before I ever made my way over to goEMAW, I used to watch all of Fatty's videos on youtube and it made me very happy that someone took the time to make them. It really made me very very very very very happy to watch them. I am sad that there will no longer be anymore videos from him. I have been reading all of the posts that various people have made about him and restrained commenting because I needed time to think about what I would say. I didn't want to throw up a casual T&Ps, though it would have been heartfelt, I knew that Fatty deserved better. I actually haven't cried about his passing until this moment right now. It made me sad to see someone that had such a huge impact on so many gone so soon. Last night I typed in 'fatty4ksu' into google and saw so many pages filled with results of places he was a member online. I don't know how he did it, but to stay involved in so much, in so many places, is extremely admirable. I always saw some threads on other team's pages with dedications to him. I think what struck me more than the fact that there were threads, is that I didn't see one comment from an bad person saying anything negative. I think that says the most about F3. In a world full of edgy, cruel, and downright hurtful posts in the bbs world. No one made one. With all of the negative things said about people that pass, and for no one to say anything bad about him on rival boards, says it all to me. I'll be honest, there were times that F3's really upbeat and happy threads/posts really pissed me off. I'm not always a happy person, and now that he is gone, I reflect on what made me so angry at times about his posts. He was a truly happy person, spreading sunshine and greatness on all those around him, those that he didn't even know. I realized that my anger came not as his posts, but as his being what I always want to be. He got respect and attention in the best way possible, he did great works, carried himself well, and even with the anonymity of the net, he never forgot who he was. His real life persona was truly shown while bbs'n.
I never met this man, and didn't always love his posts, but looking back I know the fault lied with me and the jealousy that I had for his joy. I once heard that the measure of love is in loss. If I see you again F3, I will tell you that though your love was once lost on me, I thank you for doing all that you could to be the type of person that I've always wanted to be. I want to thank you for all that you've done for the EMAW community. I want you to know that I will forever miss your posts on here. You are a great man and you were taken too soon. You're great life has moved us all, like a tide by the moon.
