About what, Jake?
About being named the starter for Kansas State.
Oh, yeah.
They sit on a limestone wall. Daniel's shoes are untied, Jake wears sandals. It's 7:48 p.m.
I'm not going to sit here and say I'm not excited, but I also feel bad that it could only be one of us.
Hey, it was a good battle, a good challenge for both of us and we both gave it our best, but Coach just thinks you're the guy right now.
The faint sound of hammer on nail is in the background, maybe a drill...
In a case like this, I don't know how to feel... Should I want what is best for myself...for the team...or what?
That's an interesting question. I think our outlook should always be towards something greater than ourselves and in this case that is probably the team, but maybe there is something more...something even more powerful and worth looking toward?
I think you're probably right. I don't want to be selfish. Even though I had the goal to win the starting job, I shouldn't view it as a self serving act. But what can there be beyond the team, beyond football? Sometimes I even wonder how responsible I am for my success. How much control do I really have? At times I feel like there is more going on than I have command over.
Both are silent as they think...there is a large cloud room filling with bronze light overhead...
You're certainly right that there are forces involved that we can't control. I mean, even the fact that another man, Coach Snyder, made the decision that you would be the starter was mostly out of our hands. Sure, we did our best and stuff like that, but we couldn't make the final determination. I also think that there is likely, on a greater scale, something that has control of what goes on with people and on this planet.
Like what?
I'm not totally sure, but I've felt like every day of my life there has been something there, something that I couldn't see, but was there nonetheless. Something that not only was playing a role in my life, but in the totality of existence.
Wow, I know what you're saying...I think I've felt that too.
Would you like to help me discover what it is, Jake?
Sure, let's look together, Daniel.
