Life is hell. Life is chaos. Life is evil. Man can create nirvana on earth sometimes in his own space, but usually at the expense of others. What we accomplish in material wealth is vanity, not worth anything to us when dead. Helping better the lives of others now is the only earthly pursuit with meaning and anidote the forces seeking to destroy us. My advice put your life in the hands of Jesus, help others, and enjoy and love your family, friends and neighbors.