I am currently in the state of mind that I was when I started this thread and replied, then the next day I read a few of the new posts and it made me sad. I went full beems style and stopped reading (though he may still read but not post,

). I know and yes I opened myself up for it. It isn't hard to read my self view by my posts, so kudos for doing that. Most people say they don't care, but I do. It doesn't impact my day to day life, but yes it still sucks to read people disparaging oneself.
For those with solid advice in the first few pages, thank you. I appreciate it. For those that saw through my arrogance and saw my vulnerability and insecurity,
